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Over a Cup • He Told Me This Story About His Favorite Vacation  

Over a Cup

A mere leanness of the soul, we know we can be better.
We are, to a different flame, burned up by terrible things,
seeds scattered by hand, sacrifices made of the dead.
The cold anger of him, a snare, a whoring of the
women under open hands, and the light ought to be red.
The candle pink, better yet, as, these acts gather
force around me at all times, at will, the spell is magic,
Even though I knew better, I was a part. Even though
I knew nettle, saffron, licorice, rhubarb, rosemary
chickweed, clover. Even though I knew, I went there,
far from the hand of him I was there. And the waters,
the molten image of him, far from the good sea
on which I have drawn in many demon figures.
Write his name in a circle. Hold it over the cup:
Him Born, Him Born, Him Born, Him Born.
Here. Hold the sea under the cup, Men are
unmanageable targets. The lamp is lit
and the wormwood seeds are cast on top until
the seventh wick flickers Nettle, saffron, licorice,
rhubarb. Of this spell: nettle, saffron, licorice,
rhubarb. On this day. Of this hour, quicky, immediately,
rapid now. Over the cup, a daily cup, everlasting,
the outlasting of this cup, drink it in, like a night we have
all known, many have known. Repeat the words,
the holy words, the godly words, seven times, following.
Find a good drinking cup; the owner ought to have used it:
rosemary, chickweed, clover. Even though I knew:
rosemary, chickweed, clover. The lamp was lit
seven times over. Over a cup, a good drinking cup,
a spell to say that the cows still graze on common land
The villagers share a common oven, granite dwellings
have a cross at the door to ward off the devil. Be it known,
we are dried up in its depths, the spell. This life. Even
though I knew better, I am part of this bruxa spell:
nettle, saffron, licorice, rosemary, chickweed, clover
The lamp is lit, and it ought to be red. The candle pink.

He Told Me This Story About His Favorite Vacation  

He said she was miserable. In the
moment, seeing the soft parts of him,
in all his hairy-chested smooth-talking
savior-modest, superman glory, in the
midst of our hot affair, I paused, What
a delusional woman his first wife had been,
the houseboat, rugged up with plastic
vacationing gear and her stuck
in the galley, while they motored
around a 1,229-foot lake above sea level,
fishing off the dreamy edges of the sun
deck and, her laying out tables, cleaning
up. Why didn’t she ask for help, quit
cooking for everyone and his brother.
Why didn’t she jump off the promenade
into 247 square miles of royal blue water.
She had a feminist choice, I insisted. Deep,
young and messy, I was adamant. Why
didn’t she make her kids pitch in, taking
turns washing dishes, flipping pancakes.
They could have had a taco night, I said,
or frozen Swanson’s. What a feeble woman
she was, relegating herself to something
she hated, all without crystal-clear
advocation for herself. I think of this
story nearly every day, about the lake’s
formed bodies, the narrows, a virgin river
with its previously submerged white
surfaces, and Hoover Dam’s thick cement
wall, its giant presence holding back 28.23
million acre-feet of water where the river
violently meets the lake and settles in.

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Millicent Borges Accardi

Millicent Borges Accardi, a Portuguese-American writer, is the author of four poetry collections, including Only More So (Salmon Poetry, Ireland)). Among her awards are fellowships from the National Endowment for the Arts (NEA), Fulbright, CantoMundo, the California Arts Council, Foundation for Contemporary Arts (Covid grant), Fundação Luso-Americana (Portugal), PEN, and Barbara Deming Foundation, "Money for Women." She is a mentor in the Adroit Journal and AWP Writer 2 Writer summer programs and lives in he hippie arts community of Topanga, CA. Recent poems in Salamander, Los Angeles Review, Glass, and North Dakota Quarterly.

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